Hey world, sorry it's been a minute. Long ass weekend. Friday night I had dinner plans with my family and I hung out with R which was fun. It's was like it's two months later and nothing has changed. We talked some about what happens if he isn't eligible to enlist:

1.) He goes away to aeronautical school for a bachelors and then flies commercially based from wherever he is living.
or
2.) He gets his license and degree locally and then flies commercially or teaches flying based from here.

Guess which one I want!

 I can't even put to words how happy I would be if he stayed. I would be in college at that point and after my first year having to live on campus we could get an apartment together. We both have jobs that we could keep while going to school so money wouldn't be a huge problem. He could fly and see the world without being in danger or combat or gone for months at a time... And he would come back here to me. Maybe it's just me but I don't get the whole "wanderlust" thing. A vacation is cool or maybe a semester abroad, but why do people not want to stay somewhere long enough to put down roots? Roots are what you build a career and a life and a family on. Everything I want, and have ever wanted, with him. I guess I'll keep you updated on that.

Saturday I was booked solid and capped it off with a nervous breakdown. College tour 11-1, rehearsal 2-3, and work 4-11. By the time I got home I just wanted to sit down and cry because my back hurt so bad. School is getting to me and the next month is going to be a literal hell. But hey, in exactly one month I will be finishing my finals so I guess it's a win/lose.

Yesterday a friend and I drove up to see R at work, which was awesome. We both work at our respectable restaurants, but at his he's a server and at mine I'm a hostess/kitchen-hand. I love watching him work, he could send somebody off of a cliff with just a smile and thy would go happily thinking it was their idea. Then I called off because I did NOT feel like dealing with that shit all night. R and I took advantage of an empty house for the first time in months and then made dinner together. Why would it be so hard to just do that for the rest of our lives, huh?

Then we went to see "The Other Woman" and let me tell you that it was hilarious. And Kate Upton? Dear God...

Now I am here talking to you lovely people and eating a bagel, and for the moment life is good. Talk to me in a couple hours when I'm buried in laundry and scrambling to finish calculus homework.

- A